SO I was reading my last journal entry, and I depressed myself... I was in such a bad mood yestarday and I don't like it. I hate feeling defeatied and bad. So I decided that I am going to turn over a new leaf. I am going to do everything that I can to make sure I don't get into that mood for a while...

So I want to lose about 70-80 pounds. I am overweight and I think losing most of it would really help my confidece and esteem. I want to get down to a normal and avrage weight for myself and maybe this will help myself talking to guys more. I HATE HATE HATE saying my weight but I weigh about 195 and I should be at about 110 or 120... So now I am going to start working out every day, or as much as I can. I did today and I feel refreshed and more motivated. I think I might put up little notices of my weight loss, if I feel like it or feel like it is something acomplished for me...

I also want to stop worring about guys so much... It is getting so old. I fall for a guy and I think that he likes me back but it ends up fuccin me over in the long run. I hate it so officialy, relationships is being put on the back burner. I want to focus on myself and school right now because those are the two most important things in my future. I need to finish school if I want to work at DisneyLand and I can't focus when I am depressed over douche bags and self problems. So I am going to focus on getting caught up on everything and losing weight.

Thanks for reading and if anyone even cares, that is nice too. ^_^ I am in such a better mood today that I just feel like singing!!! Joke joke, not really, but I am in a happy mood. ^_^